chapter 6

My phone took me back to reality!

 It was ringing ..

I picked it up, without looking on the screen, expecting it would be lulu..

I replied with a shaking voice..

Me: Aloo

……: shayoukha shlounch…?

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It was a male voice ..

And familiar to me too..

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…..: aloo

Me: …..

…..: aloo shayoukha tesm3enyy??

Me: *crying*

……: shfeechh 7abebtyy? 3sa mashrr! :o

My heart and mind were struggling now, my heart kept  reminding me of what he did to me .. how he left me in my hard times..

But my mind, kept showing me that I need him now more than before .. and without him I’m completely lost .. I must to forget about the past and forgive him too..

My thoughts were interior struggling again and again ..

I decided to hang up on him.

He kept calling for several times..

Finally, I picked it up..

But this time, my heart have won this interior war..

Me: Hmm ..

…..: 7abebty shayoukha ana adri eny wayed mg9er ib 7gch .. 9adgeny youm sem3t ench bl mustashfa la tshofen sh9ar feeny!!! Ana wayed mt2sef 3ala ely 9ar .. o 9adgeni lw yrd fena el zman chan khathetch m3ay o ma trktch brou7ch ..

Me: khala9 9ar ely 9ar .. o trktni o kamelt 7ayatek bdounii!!! Nadmek ma ynf3 el7een!

……: khaleena n6wy ely 6af o nefta7 9af7a ydeda :(

Me: SHLOUUN TBEEENYY ANSAAA ELY 6AAAF!!!!! O ANA KNT 3AYSHA KEL THEKRYATIII 3ALA A7LAAAM O SRAAAB … MA KNT A3REF ANAAM EL LAIL *sniffing* ELA LMA A7’9N 9WRNAA *sniffing* O ABCHYYY *sniffing*

……: la tbcheen walla dmou3ch ghalyaa 3alayyy..

Me: bs kefayaaa!! La t7asesnii enk lyl7een te’htam feenyy! Mabe asm3 mnk shyy khala9 khalnyy akmel 7ayatii bdounk  ..  arjouuk rou7 ou ensaah shy esmah “shaikha” ;’)

……: la tgoleen hl 7achy ana mest3d a3w’9ch 3n .. *interrupting him*

Me: m3a el salamaa o allah ywfgek ib 7aytek el ydeeda!!!

This time, I decided to switch off my phone..

I went and lied my head on the nearest wall in my room, and drifted in to tears ..

My sister heard me crying, cause her room was near mine, she came rushing to me, saw me in a miserable situation she knew that I doesn’t want to talk about it now .. so she just lay beside me and hugged me tearing with me without knowing the hidden secret behind my tears :’)

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#Random thoughts

We all have that person who we love .. but our tongue keep on saying stuff completely the opposite of our TRUE feelings toward that person .. and then, later we’ll regret it..