My brother Ahmed came to pick me up from the hospital, he is
being so sweet with me .. his over kindness is creeping me..
When I reached home, I told Ahmed to help me enter my
room cause as u see, I’m on wheel chair now ..
Nancy *nanny* came after couple of minutes to help me ..
she was 24/7 by my side in the hospital, taking care of me, trying to cheer me
up .. she is a completely stranger for
anyone else .. but for me she’s an eldest sister to me .. she’s part of my
family, I love her so much!!!! :c
Nancy helped me to lay on the bed, I asked her
immediately to get me my lab from the drawers, because I wanted to read more
about that hospital in London, which the doctor told me about..
I was scanning through the internet, when suddenly my
eyes fall on the small banner on the right .. it was the price of some SIMPLE
surgeries in there..
OH NOOOO!!!!!!
A tear found its way to my cheek..
Nancy noticed how depressed I was, she came closer to me,
placed her arms around my left shoulder..
Nancy: what’s wrong dear?
Me: It’s too expensive!!!! :( … I’ll never afford this
amount of money ..
Nancy: oh, why don’t u ask your grandma for help?
Me: well .. grandma she has that amount of money you know
that .. but I can’t ask her! What I meant to say is.. do you remember how mad
my mom got from me, when she knew that I always keep asking grandma for money
.. and to be honest I’m really ashamed from myself.. she is not the one responsible of me..
Nancy: umm, what about your dad? :o isn’t he responsible
for you?
When she brought his name out “DAD” I started shaking
nervously, she has opened my old scars ..
I asked her gently to leave the room, and leave me alone,
she responded, and left immediately!
I sat on the ground facing the mirror of my closet ..
Placing my hands on my face ..
Losing myself apart..
Tears won’t stop running on my reddish tomato cheeks..
I opened my eyes looked through the mirror ..
BUT!
I only saw an UGLY image looking to me back through the
eyes..
I lost control..
I was about to break the mirror with my hands .. I wanted
to delete the image of this girl from my mind..
But SUDDENLY!!!
My phone took me back to reality!
It was ringing ..
I picked up, without looking on the screen, expecting it
would be lulu..
I replied with a shaking voice..
Me: Aloo
……: shayoukha shlounch…?
.
.
.
It was a voice of MALE.
.
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#Random thoughts
Life is full of surprises...
And no one knows
what’s the future is hiding for him..
It might be good, and it might be bad..
Be patient..
Don’t think too much of what u lost..
Be satisfied with what u have..
& remember, no one can “make” u feel happy ..
You are the ONLY one to draw the happiness to your life..
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