chapter 3

Wait a sec .. why khaled is removing all the mirrors from the room?

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Does that mean there’s something wrong with the way I look?

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Me: 3-6ou-nyy ELMN’9RAA NOW!!!

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Every single person in the room kept staring at me more now!! They just looked at me and didn’t respond to anything I said ..

Mom: shayoukha 7abebti enty erta7y el7een twch 6al3a mn el 3amleya eldectouur gal lazm try7en o el39beya mu zainh lch ..

Me: MA TEF--HMOUUUUUN!!! AGO--UUL LKUM 36OUU--NYY ELMN’9--RAAAA NOWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!! *shouting my lungs out & breathing hardly*

Nour stole the mini mirror from Khalid hands and throw it as hard as she can on my creepy bed..

I was trying to reach it when suddenly I was stopped by my mom’s hands! She held my hands too tight to her chest .. and all of a sudden her tears appeared running on her reddish cheeks..

 Mom: shayoukha la tswen ib 3umrch chithyy .. e7na nabe m9l7tich nabe ra7tchh .. lish t93been 3alina el amour lishL

me: EN—TAAAYYY MA T7BEE—NYYY!!!!!!!

Grandma: 3aib shayoukha shl,7achyy!!

A river of tears started to appear, I quickly hid under the cover of my bed, I didn’t want them to see how weak I’m .. how hurt I’m ..

Thoughts>>

I know that what I said to my mom was so harsh and rude maybe? .. I was forced to say this to her .. I mean I was completely lost in my thoughts!!!

If she loved me, why she asked me to go and live with grandma for couple of days?

If she loved me, then why she keeps hiding stuff from me?

If she loved me, why she refused to give me the mirror ? and let me die from inside..

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After a couple of minutes I heard the doctor voice, which brought me back to reality ..

Doctor: good evening .. may you all empty this room immediately now?

Mom: I’m her mom..can I stay beside her pleaseL?

Doctor: hmm well ..but only for few minutes..

Nour: me too!! i’m like a sister to her I can’t leave her alone

When I heard nour saying “sister” i couldn’t handle it anymore!!!!

 I EXPLODED !!!

Me: MAA-BEECHH 6EL3—YY BRAAAAA!!!!! *screaming my lugs out*

The doctor asked them both kindly to leave me alone with him ..

Doctor: so .. shaikha how you feel now?

Me: el7emd—allah

Doctor: shaikha .. first of all you should thank allah sub7anah .. cause it was a miracle to survive from that horrible accident ..

Me: did it affe—ct me bad-ly?

Doctor: as u see .. you face difficulty in speaking loudly .. well your tongue was so deep injured .. but we did our best to recover the damages .. and soon you’ll be talking normally .. and your body.. well, is full of scars and big spots of dry blood .. it needs a couple of months to return normally with a medicine and a special treatment weekly.. but for your legs you need to sit in a wheelchair for a month or more it depends on how you respond to the treatment..

Me: wha—t about my fa—ce?

Doctor: well to be honest your face was the MOST INJURED part from your body .. but we tried our best to make it look normal ..

Me: wha—t you mea—n with no—r-mal?

Doctor: well, your face was full of scars small and big ones .. also there were a lot of damages and cuts below your jaw and above your eye brows .. so we did a surgery trying to cover some of the cuts but the effects are still there it needs time to recover and return normally with a treatment of course..

Me: ca—n you hand me the mir—ror ple-ase ?

Doctor: are you sure?

Me: yee—ss  pleaseLLL

Doctor: okay if u insist..

A nurse came rushing in the room ..

Nurse: doctor we need you immediately! It’s an emergency !!

Doctor: then I’m coming now.

He handed me the mirror, and left following the nurse .. leaving me alone in this creepy bed .. alone to face the reality that was kept secret from me ..

I kept staring on the back of the mirror..

Finally..

I decided to look at myself .. to revel the hidden secrets  ..

I flipped it ..

Opened one eyes ..

Then the other slowly ..

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There got to be something wrong with that mirror ! this UGLY girl staring at me back could not be me!!!!!! :o :o :o :o

I was shaking so nervously ..

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The mini mirror felt from my hands toward the ground and it broke apart in to tiny pieces ..

A dozen of tears appeared on my  horrible face ..

I placed my hands on my face trying to cover those ugly features .. but the truth is, I could not forget the image that I just saw .. the image of what I had just saw in the mirror is reappearing now in my mind !!!

I looked like Charlie the dummy.

 

A big scar drawn from my eyes to my jaw, and many scars surrounding my lips like a vampire..

 

 

 

 

 

I had a big horrible thingy from the surgery above my eyebrows .. it looks so hairy!

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Let admit it, I look like a MONSTER.

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Now Khalid will never likes me or look at me in the eyes, the way he used to ..

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  #Random thoughts

Most of us hate facing their problems, and they escape from them by being busy doing other stuff instead of trying to find a solution for their problem.

But there’s always a good side in facing a problem or a difficulty ..

In hard times you’ll learn from your mistakes..

In hard times the masks will fall, and the reality of people will appear..

In hard times you’ll know who’s your REAL friend and who’s the FAKE one..