Hello:*
Bs 7bait agoul lkm IGNORE my spelling,
grammatical mistakes cause ma chaykt::
Ou ely 3endhum exams good luckk, mwafgeen yarabb<33
ENJOYYYYY
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*Lulu’s pov*
I was laying on my
bed, having flashbacks ..
Jassem, and that girl
who resembles my features..
Laughing together..
Having eye contact..
m3qoula el sha59 el
wa7eed ely 7abet’h mn kel gulbi y5ounii? .. m3qoula, el sha59 ely 3adeta aghla
nasyy y63ni b’9ahri? .. la laaa mu gadra a9dg wla astw3eb ely shafeta 3ainy..
y3ni el 7een mu bs
khesrt sm3ty.. 7ata ely knt a’9na “7abebii” 9ar ybe3ni brkhee9..
…..
There was a knock on
the door, then it got louder.. as if someone was trying to break the door..
“Mnn—u ?” *sniffing,
I said*
“ BA6LY EL BAAAB A7SN
LCHH!!!!!!!!!!!
There was something
in his tone I could not understand..
Terrified, as usual,
I went to unlock the door.
Thoughts>>>>>>>>>
I still remember that
moment, as if it was yesterday..
I could still feel
it..
How my cheeks were
burning with pain and shame..
Pain, from abdualla’s
harsh hands..
Shame, from myself, I
trusted, and gave myself to that player, and brought العار to my
family..
Abdualla: “3balch lish e7na m5lench 3ala ra7tch la raqeb wla 7aseeb,
3adi tswen ely brasch? 7esbalch wld el 7araam bytzwj ashkalich?? Haach shoufi
9wrtich ely tshyeb elras!!!! *Throwing his phone on me* entay shaw’hty sm3t el
3ayla!!! B3d ely saweteh? Ma test78ain t9eren fard mn hl 3aylaa. 36enach el
the8a ou chithy trden lna hl jameel?
Me: “3bdualla *sniffing* please efhmny *sniffing* ana adri ely saweta
ghal6 ib ghal6 bs walaa *interrupted by abdualla*
Abdualla: “uushh sektyy yalaa!!!! Mabe asm3 mnch wla kelmaa. El7een yala
jedamy 36eni telphonch ou sm3y maku 6al3at bl weekend abech tn’thbren bl bait,
7ata mamnou3 a7d yzourch, mn el bait ly elmadresa, ou mn elmadresa ly el bait
seeda! Ou 3ashan at6mn ana ely bwdech ou byebch bnafsyy! Yaz lch wela ma yaz
lch, hatha mu sh’3ly fahmaa?!
Me: “enshallaa” *crying*
Abdualla: dm3tch hathy mra7 tghyr mn el wa’93 shy.. wla bt2thr feni
klshh. Ou 76y ib balch hatha ely gam asweh wla shy mn ely btshoufena b3dain..ra7
itmeen t7t ra7mtyy lma tzwjeen, hatha etha a7d wafe8 ya5th wa7da 3endha
sawabe8, HAHAHAHAHA:)”
I was about to replay, to stand for myself, but I stopped when my eyes
captured that figure, standing beside the door, listing, shocked ..
I can read fear, and regret from her eyes..
Fear from leaving this world all behind, leaving me heartbroken, and
destroyed..
Fear of what the future hides for her one, and only daughter, for me..
Regretting all the things that took her away from her responsibilities..
Regret of wasting each minute away from her children..
Regret of being prisoner of her past..escaping the future.
She stood motionless, like a stone in her place.
Me: “yumaa:(..” *sniffing*
waiting a reaction from her..
A scream?
Words?
Slapping my cheeks?
A tear?
A hug? maybe..
But, all my expectations failed me.
What happened is..
My mom, my dear mom..
The strong woman, who I always look up too..
6A7T MN 6OULHAA.
I threw myself on her, laying on the ground, shaking her..
Calling her name, for the zillionth time, like a child..
" يماا لا تروحين لا تخليني
بروحي بهالدنيا .. يما انا بدونج اضييع ..احس كأني غريب .. لا سند ولا ضهر
يحميني.. ما شبعت من حنانج ولا من طيب قلبج
يا يماا.. محتاجتج تكونين يمي اللحين اكثر من قبل يا يما..ان سار فيج شي يا يماا
.. ان غمضت عينج عن هالدنيا .. ما راح اسامح نفسي يا اغلى من سكن هالقلب.. "
A hand was trying to force me to get up..
Abdualla: “lulwa..bsch.. thekry allah..” *inturp*
Me: 3bdualla *facing him* ent fe mra s2lt aw fakrt 7ata lish omy rj3at
t3esh weyana b3d kel hl sneen?? .. aked la.*sniffing* Ana agol lk!!! 3bdualla,
omy m9aba bmr’9 *sniffing* ou el dector gal lha mra7 t3esh wayed *sniffing*..
fa 7abet tg’9y akhr ayamha weyana..
Abdualla: shnu? Enty shg3d tgolen shg3d tkharb6een??? TARA KLSH MU WAGT
GHASHMRA EL7EEEN!!!!!!!!
Me: 3bdualla ent shayf el wa’93.. wein atghshmer?*sniffing* Omy el ayaam
ly ga’9t’ha bra weya khalti ebtsaam kant 3ashan tshouf lha 3elaj 7g mr’9ha..
Abdualla: bs akeed aku 3elaaj?
Me: yaraait.. bs hl mr’9 nadr ma y79el.. ou lelasf ma legaw lh 3elaj
methel el cancer.. *breaking into tears*
Abdualla:!!! Ou lishh ana akhr mn y3lem .. lishh.. *Tearing*
This is the first time, ashouf ukhoy abdualla mnksr.. mt76m..
Ukhoy ely knt afez ou arjef mn asm3 9outa..
gam, yfez ou yrjef mn sm3 hl khabr ..
Ukhoy ely ymd eedh 3ala ‘3eerh..
9ar ymd eedh 3ala nafsaa.. mt7sr 3ala ayamh el souuda..
Ukhoy ely ib kel mukan far’9 nafsa..
9ar ytkwr ib zawyat gharfty ybchy methel el 6efel ..
…………
*Meshary’s pov*
6ouul el 6areej ou e7na bl bus shaikha gam edm3, tgoul dmou3 el fara7,
khal9t cartoon el tissue ib kubra =)) ..
6ab3a’a .. bl bus we sang for her ou swaina lha jaw;p
Until that moment .. khalet el ebtsama te5tfy mn wayha el jameel..
Me: waai3 .. shl’ 7umra?
Shaikha: shnu;/
Me: allah yhadach .. fe a7d y76 el 7umra chithy? Chna yahal la3ba ib
wayhech..
Shaikha: ufff, ent sh7arek? Ou b3dain gbel la t3ayeb shouf nafsek bl
awl:)
Well, ymkn balght shwy? Bs ma knt abe ajr7ha.. bs el loan ely 7a6eta
wayd ylfet..
Ymkn swait che.. lish aghaar? Madre..
L7’9a meshary shg3d tkhrb6? A9lan Ma bainkum shyy!!
..
After that she kept ignoring me all the way to the village.
Awl ma w9lna el water village, uboha ra7 g3d bl m63m weya shaayb t3rf
3aleh bl bus..ou ‘9alina ana weyaha brou7na..
Me: Shaikha..
she gave me that death stare, then turned around, and went walking
ignoring me completely..
Me: shaikhaa aklmch anaa?
Ya bent..
Asf .. ma knt a89d eny ajr7ech ..
Madre shloun 6l3 mny hl 7achy sam7eni..
She IGNORED:)
#At The Restaurant
Shaikha: yubaa meta nrj3?
Shaikha’s dad: haw lish? Besmallah twna wa9len..
Shaikha: bs malaiit abe ard el she8a..
Shaikha’s dad: lish? Sh9ayer? Twch sh’zenich t’97keen?
Me: 3my ana agoul lk el salfa.. bentk shaft el al3ab ehny kha6ra bl
nesba lha .. fa ma tbe tfshel 3umrha 3ashan chithy btrj3;p
Shaikha: ent ekrmna b,skoutek fahem?
Me: la ma 3endy baskout 3endy ba89em ynf3?;$ ::
Shaikha: eskt la a7thfek mn el deresha!!
Me: shloun? Akhaf at8l8e9 b3dain:(?
Shaikha: ethlef 3n wayhe:)
Shaikha’s dad: bs shaikha..t3wthy mn eblees ou rou7i weya meshari
Shaikha: many ray7a weya hl maynouun ely ma yest7y 3ala wayhaa
Shaikha’s dad: bs shaikha 3aib!!
Meshari: mn gal y3ni ana ely maytn 3alich el7en?
Our voices raised, which caused destruction to other people, eventually
the waiter asked us to leave the restaurant in peace.
We continued struggling..
Till we reached this game…
Me: eeh yuba 3erfna
ench khawafa ;)
Shaikha: la ‘9ay3 el
salfaa
Me: YAL KHAWAFAA
KAAAAAAK
Shaikha: okay, etha
rakbt’ha sht36eni? *evil smile*
Me: umm, anything u
ask for?:p bs shy agdr asweh::
Shaikha: okay ;)
After few minutes…
Shaikha: I’m backkk
!! I did it yaay \o/
Meshari: la t7aseseni
mswya enjaz, tara ag9aha za7lagya malt yahal::
Shaikha: chub:( .. el
mohem 9wrtny video??
Meshari: ou lish enshalla?
Laykoun bt76ena instagram =))
Shaikha: eehh:$
Meshari: el yayaat
akthr enshalla::
Shaikha: eeh t3al ma
nsait, you owe me?
Meshari: eeh 6elby
6elby::
Shaikha: umm.. emsh
m3ayy
Meshari: 3ala wein?
Shaikha: waaay la
tkthr as2laa just follow me!!!
Meshari: enshalla
3amty::
…..
*Shaikha’s pov*
we kept moving, tell
we reached place b3eed 3n an’9ar el nas, 6al3t el 7umra mn my cross bag, ou I
smiled hathech el EVILISH smile;$
meshari: yaybtne ehny
3ashan t76en hl 7umra? Athb7ich?:)
Me: mn gal ana ely b76ha?;)
meshari: sh89dch?
Me: tf’9el? *handing
him the lipstick*
Meshari: la entay
akeed yaneetyy!!
Me: u told me btswy
ely a6leba mnk, yalaa jedaamy ashouf 7e6 el lipstick!!
Meshari: la shnu
hatha wein ga3den, rayal sh6ouli sh3r’9y a76 7umra? La ou mshwrb b3d
Me: umm..mashyy
Meshari: pick
something realistic ya bent..
Me: 3yal erk’9 ou 9r5
b 9out 3alay?
Meshari: shnu 6arzan
jedamch?-.-
7ata ma t3rfen t6lben
shy san3::
Me: leget’ha leget’ha
!!!!
Meshari: ayeshh?
Me: rou7 eshtr ly
maay
Meshari: la wallah
7elfyy?=))
Me: 36shana b3d
shnu-.-
Meshari: 9ij ench
kheblaa ::
3ala ma iyeeeb ly
elmay, I checked my phone, mtrous mentions, wishes for my bday..
I found 6 questions on ask, 5 wishing me hbd..
and the 6th, was a
SHOCK to me..
"عرفت قيمتك اللحين عرفت
الدنيا دواره. ."
Who could it be?..
………………
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